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I took this pic of Add a few hours before I got braces on Thursday.

I was excited for braces, they were going to fix my chipping/gappy smile.

Little did I know that I would be thrown into a tailspin of feelings.

All of the sudden I was in High School not feeling very pretty anymore.

(lots of emotions and issues that go along with that in my brain)

I was surprised that I felt this way because I feel like I have come very far since I was that insecure girl.

All the sudden I wasn't me anymore or at least I didn't look like me.
On top of that, I can't eat solid food.  My mouth is killing me.

I let myself feel bad all day Thursday.  I cried to Ethan.

I almost didn't go to work on Friday.

I decided I should go because I couldn't really take a whole year off of work so eventually I would need to go.  Friday wasn't bad.  We went to a movie after Ethan was done with work.  I had diet coke and sucked on Jr. Mints until they melted.  So appetizing!  

Saturday was OK.  It is not very fun to not be able to eat real food.

Talking all day at work killed my mouth.  My jaw was sore and the inside of my mouth shredded.

It was not a good night.  But hopefully I have slept off my bad feelings and woke up feeling determined to have a good attitude today.  I'm sick of hearing myself complain (especially about something I chose to do myself) and I'm sure the people around me are tired of the complaining too.

I am lucky to have Ethan to remind me that I'm beautiful with or without braces.

And lots of moral support from friends and family.

Thanks Ash and Anna for the texts.

Thanks Mich for the Diet Coke and milkshake run too.